I have been more than preoccupied and just not found it in me to write since my last post, but I think its time.
Since May we had our 12 week scan, which as you all know I was a nervous wreck about, but it went great!
Here is a pic of our little titch!
During the scan the baby actually measured 2 days further ahead than we thought, so I was 12 weeks and 2 days when this was taken.
Which (seeing as I thought I was only 11 weeks and 4 days then) was a relief that I was past the 12 week mark already without even knowing it :)
So everything with baby looked fine, we cried, we showed everyone, then we told our friends and family (those who didn't already know). Everyone was ecstatic for us.
Most of all after seeing the baby, knowing everything was okay and telling the world, I was happy, felt relieved and could enjoy the pregnancy now!
That lasted a good few weeks haha
After 2-3 more weeks I had an appointment with the midwife where she was going to check the heartbeat with a doppler as I was only 15ish weeks, she was doubtful, but we got a clear strong heartbeat!
Which eased the anxiety, because as with every check up, I was nervous before that something would be wrong!
Anywho, everything was fine!
The next check up wouldnt be until the 20 week sex scan.
In between this time, I had fallen ill, my breathing was awful and I was tired all the time, and one morning I coughed up a lot of blood, so went straight to the walk in clinic.
They admitted me straight away and checked me out for a pulmonary embolism (blood clot)
They did tests and it was scary but I felt better being checked out.
All they found pulmonary embolism wise was slightly elevated marker for a clot but that is normal in pregnancy.
They said I had a severe chest infection and other infections and basically walking pneumonia.
The doctor prescribed me antibiotics and said although I am pregnant, it is worse if I DONT take them.
(It's now been about two weeks since then and I tried to take one or two but haven't done the course, I'm really apprehensive but know I need to!)
Also, We moved home!
We were in a small one bedroomed apartment which was not suitable for me, my partner, our dog and a baby!
Luckily enough we managed to find a house near my parents, in a nice enough area, that will take a dog and young couple expecting, which believe it or not, is not something that is easy to find near my area!
We moved in the beginning of July and are settling in nicely.
There are 3 bedrooms, so baby gets a big nursery and my partner gets a games room! (My idea so I can ship him off there when I want my friends to come around and take over the living room)
It's brilliant so far.
The nursery needs to be styled, its freshly decorated and we don't need to paint, so we will be buying some wall decals and decorations and I think we have decided on a cute circus style for the baby's room.
Bunting and a little big top over the cot, with animals and such! Its bright and colourful and very us!
So at this moment, We are 1 day away from our sex scan.
Tomorrow is the day we find out if it's a boy or a girl.
As I may have mentioned, I would like a boy, Don't get me wrong I will adore this baby either way, but being honest, I would like a boy first!!
Also as I may have said, I previously and currently suffer with sever anxieties and depression. At the moment this is very manageable, but that isn't always the case, so my midwife is watching me pre and post labour for any signs of PND (postnatal depression) or the like.
Now although this is not a problem at the moment and hopefully will not be at all, I am still worried that IF they tell me it is a girl, and my reaction is anything less than they expect, then they will be worried and then watch me like a hawk!!
Now as I said of course I will adore this baby no matter their sex or anything, but I still worry my emotional reaction will be something they would not like.
Again this is just myself worrying, and I have spoken to my partner who has told me not to worry and he knows I will be fine and I am just worrying, so this eased my anxiousness a bit.
We will tell tomorrow though wont we!
Either way i'm nervous and excited for tomorrow.
I still think that I have crushed my baby by sleeping on my tummy, its the ONLY way I can get comfy!
And that something is terribly wrong because i'm not as bumpy as others at my stage! But then again, I'm a plus sized moma and it will take longer to pop!
Saying this, nothing fits me and there is a noticeable bump, so I'm not crazy I guess haha
Here is a pic of myself (forgive the terrible amounts of lumpiness pre and current as I said...plus sized!!) 4 weeks and 16 weeks pregnant!
Flump or Bump? You decide haha
Given that I am almost 5 months pregnant I have still lost 3 kg since getting pregnant! So It can't all be bad!
Anywho, I will try to post sooner with news and tell you all the sex!!
Tinkle or a Winkle....place your bets.
- Rosebudz
